Personal Training

I've decided that there is something very empowering about working with a personal trainer. Something about being pushed to my absolute limit, and finding I can go there; something about feeling like I'm going to die and can't possibly do one more, but pushing out 5 more anyway; something about just showing off for someone who does this for a living, and being told that he's impressed with me- there's just something about all of it that makes me feel so powerful. I can do this! I can lose the weight! I can be strong!

After I had my baby I felt like the biggest weakling on the planet. I couldn't even do the simplest things anymore, and I thought I couldn't even handle the simple workout videos I used to do. After working with a trainer for a few weeks, I feel like I can handle something like P90X, easy. Actually, I feel like I can do anything. Even if I'm not losing weight at the rate I want to, I feel different about myself, and I think that's worth the exorbitant amount of money I pay to have someone try and kill me twice a week.

My Perfect Week: Conclusion

So, I kinda fell off the wagon this weekend. Not TOO badly, but my percentage of fat intake went up to 25-30%. I still consider it a small victory, though. I consider Friday a victory just because I didn't get french fries, and donuts, and cookies, and about a million pounds of comfort food. It was the day from HELL! And I burned a lot more than I ate, which I had just been told is a no-no, but by the time I got home I really didn't care and I just wanted to go to bed.

Saturday was better, but what with it being Christmas and all, there was food EVERYWHERE! Gum will probably become my new best friend on this journey. It's too easy to pass a bowl of M&M's and just take a few.... and a few more.... and a few more... unless you have gum in your mouth. Then it's much easier to resist things like that when you're not really hungry, but tempted to take food just because it's there. We also had a free meal in the cafeteria, which I seriously considered resisting, but ended up getting anyway. It was free!!! I did manage to only eat half the chocolate pie thingy, which I consider a huge accomplishment.

Sunday was supposed to be great, but I didn't realize until AFTER dinner that our favorite chicken teriyaki meatballs (chicken! really! who would have thought??) are about 40% fat. I guess, now that I think about it, it makes sense... they are just too damn delicious to be any healthier. And then the leftovers (about 4 meatballs) were left out on the counter, and it was a deficit in willpower that made me just grab one as I passed... and one more while I was making Corbin's bottle... and one more after I put him to bed.... Seriously, you'd think Brit would be more considerate and eat the rest before I could.

Today I got measured and judged again. I lost a little bit of weight (I think... less than a pound, if anything) and about one more % of body fat. And now, we start My Perfect Week: Take 2. I can do better this time!!!

Check-In

Today, I got yelled at for burning too many calories! What????

My trainer says he wants me at a MAXIMUM calorie deficit of 1,000/day. Because I guess beyond that, you're really just burning off muscle! It's hard, though. With our current workouts, I am working HARD, and easily burn over 3,000 calories on a training day. It's actually a struggle to eat enough to make up for that!

Percentage-wise, I'm still holding strong. Bring on the weekend!

My Perfect Week: Day 1

And we're off! ...to a not-so-great start. I worked really hard on Tuesday to stay within my calorie budget, and basically succeeded, even with eating out for lunch! My breakdown:

1619 Kcal

18% Protein

60% Carbs

22% Fat

Good Job!

The bad: Even with walking around temple square for an hour, and climbing stairs during commercials, and running on the treadmill as a last-ditch effort to make my goal, I still only burned 2515 for the day. How depressing. Just barely short!

Making a Change

My baby is 6 months old, and I'm still 30 lbs heavier than my normal "heavy" weight. This has to stop. I've been lucky enough to work with a personal trainer for the past 3 months, and as of Monday, I've lost...... ONE POUND! Huzzah. After looking at my food intake, he's convinced that nutrition is what's holding me back. I'm trying to make good choices in my diet, and yet fat still makes up 30+% of my nutrient breakdown. Oops. I know what I should be doing, but not being held accountable to anyone leads to poor choices on my part. I tend to think "Oh it won't matter just this once." But "just this once" happens several times a week! So he's agreed to take 10 minutes out of one session a week and go over nutrition. Knowing that somebody's going to be looking at- and judging me for- my food choices really puts into perspective whether I actually NEED that cheeseburger or not. And usually, I don't. 

My goals:

Drink at least 96 oz of water a day

Eat 1650 calories

Nutrition breakdown: 20% fats, 20% protein, 60% carbs

Burn 2650 calories a day (total, including BMR)

Go to the gym at least 3 times a week

I'm going to try to have a "perfect week" and see what my weight loss is on monday. This is encouraging, because I know when I've dieted in the past (Weight Watchers) I'd start out losing something like 4-5 lbs a week before I slowed down. I think (hope) that with being much more strict about my diet, I'll start seeing better results more quickly.

This blog is to record my thoughts, and notes about noteworthy days. Let us begin!